It's raining outside, and my heart is as cold as ashes.
This is not the first or second time I've had a breakdown. Since I started working here, I've been thinking about quitting almost half of the time. Half of the time, I'm depressed, hurting myself, and affecting those around me. Mental issues often need to be resolved. As a useless person, I have already lived for more than twenty years. I always suddenly want to say goodbye to the world, but because I'm timid, I can only stay in my mind forever.
I am not someone who gets caught up in trends, but I am extremely incompatible with this corporate culture and work environment. Because I don't want to communicate with people and I'm afraid to, finding solace in front of the computer is the only thing that comforts me. After being a corporate slave for three years, I am still a waste.
I am a person without confidence, which has caused me to miss out on many opportunities. They say it's hard to find a job now. If I give up my current job, can I still find a good one? Considering the overall situation and the need for money, everyone will tell you to hold on, after all, we work for money.
Insomnia, occasional chest tightness. Dizziness and weakness, almost fainting. I'm always hesitating on the edge of quitting, fighting in my mind. I don't know which side will win.
Another late night, filled with despair from the depths of my heart.
I'm afraid to fall asleep because tomorrow is another hell.