After leaving campus, it has been the fifth month of becoming a corporate slave.
I have experienced being pua'd and working overtime until midnight. I never thought about it before, but I will eventually face all of this in the internet world.
The last period of the probation period may not be easy.
The pressure faced by leaders is always vented on the people who actually do the work. They never ask themselves what they want to do, what they don't want to do, what they are interested in, and then they impose tasks that are beyond their capabilities and cannot be completed on you. Self-doubt begins, coupled with external criticism and condemnation. It's a vicious cycle, and I start to doubt if I'm really that useless.
These things haven't happened to me yet, I'm just witnessing all of this now, and I'm afraid that one day in the future, I will experience these things. I don't have a strong heart, and after that day in the future, I will definitely start to collapse.
No, I don't want to go through all of this.
I have always been a weak person. Not outstanding and not confident, I can't withstand setbacks, I care about other people's opinions, I feel a little sad about rumors and gossip, and I feel like the whole world is against me. Can someone like me really stay in this field?
Slowly, witnessing them, feeling myself, and everything that has happened recently, we are just an empty shell, only a physical body, without a soul.