It has been several days since the school vacation started, and I have been staying at home all these days, feeling a bit uncomfortable. Maybe it's because I haven't been home for a long time. For students studying away from home, they can still go home for a month or two every half a year during the holidays. But in the future, when working away from home, maybe they can only go home once or twice a year. Writing this, I can't help but feel a bit sad.
In the first half of last year, after finding an internship, I started a life of working and studying at the same time. Although attending classes was just a formality, it was still quite difficult to coordinate both sides. The process of transitioning from part-time to semi-full-time happened in the second half of last year. Perhaps I progressed earlier than most people, as I did what a fourth-year student should do in my third year. The first half of my third year quickly passed, and I no longer put more energy into studying, nor would I study desperately before the final exams to get high grades. Taking exams just for the sake of passing, just to avoid failing. And for the first time, I felt the helplessness of being a poor student during exams: in the information systems exam, apart from the questions that were the same as those in the question bank, I didn't understand anything else, but I managed to fill the paper with random answers. After that exam, I was still afraid of failing because I knew that if I failed now, my fourth year would be difficult. Fortunately, this morning, the results came out, and I didn't fail any subjects. I suddenly felt relieved.
Lately, I've been watching a lot of emotional dramas, and I deeply feel the difficulties of being an adult. I'm also approaching the intersection of life, the moment when I walk out of the school gate and step into society. I will also become an adult. I will need to take on more responsibilities and face more difficulties. Can I still hold onto my original intentions?