Perhaps only innocent children can do whatever they want.
Looking back, I have been considering others' opinions for a long time. In this society, if you want to survive, you have to consider others' opinions. Over time, my true self has been lost. We always live with masks, pretending to be someone we are not, hiding our own opinions, and using sweet words just to gain others' approval. However, deep down, we are very dissatisfied, but we cannot express our true feelings. Surface-level friendships.
I have never been good at making friends since I was young, and now I have almost no friends. I don't even know what the concept of friendship is anymore. Without common topics or interests, it is impossible to fit in. I consider my past friends, but we have grown apart and no longer keep in touch, our relationship has ended.
Perhaps this is what happens as we grow older, we become more lonely. I live in other people's world, the world belongs to them, and I am an outsider. There is still a lot for me to learn, perhaps the most important thing is how to integrate myself.