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Anxiety

Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, a new year has begun. As I approach graduation, I feel increasingly anxious about my future employment.

March is just around the corner, and major companies have started recruiting for the 21st spring job fair and the 22nd summer internship. I can't help but wonder if I should be content with the status quo or seek a better opportunity to learn more. I have tried applying for internships at several top companies, but my efforts have mostly been in vain. After all, education is so important, and I truly feel my own insignificance. I am studying at a third-tier university, not only lagging behind others in terms of education, but also learning very little from the school. Most of what I have learned is through self-study.

There are still two options now: staying in the current situation or taking the postgraduate entrance examination. As for the postgraduate entrance examination, it may already be too late, and it requires a lot of time and energy, which may prevent me from focusing on development. Instead, I would have to bear the consequences of failure. Yesterday, I saw a post on LeetCode about whether or not to take the postgraduate entrance examination. Some people say that if your school is good and your seniors have gone to top companies, you also have a chance to go, so there's no need to take the exam. Some people say that taking the postgraduate entrance examination only provides a few years of relief from work. There are also those who choose to take the exam because they have neglected their previous studies. I am confused. Am I really interested in scientific research? Can I really bear the consequences of failure?

Obviously, I am not as good as many others. I used to follow in their footsteps step by step, but now I see that there is a huge gap that I cannot cross. Looking back, I realize that I have tried my best. I am exhausted. It's time to stop and take a look at the scenery around me. I have always believed that the efforts I have made are to strive for better opportunities and for my own dreams. People are always filled with desires and never know how to be content.

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