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The author feels like they are reaching their limit due to insomnia, anxiety, and forgetfulness. They have been trying their luck by applying to several companies without any preparation. They have been studying and memorizing tirelessly while also juggling their job. They feel frustrated and helpless, as they see themselves in a similar situation in the future. They sacrificed their time during the Lunar New Year to study and feel that everything they are doing is meaningless but important. Despite studying every day, they feel like they are not making any progress. They are tired of the repetitive studying and feel trapped because of their educational background. They contemplate giving up and escaping, as they no longer enjoy coding, which used to be their hobby. They believe that without any interests or hobbies, life is meaningless. They decide to relax and not take things too seriously.
