AI-generated summary
The author is feeling empty, lost, and helpless on their first day of unemployment. They question the meaning of life and wonder where they should go. They previously had a remote internship with a good team atmosphere and decent pay but decided to leave for a job at Ant Group. Their friends were confused by this decision, but now they realize it was a mistake as the job at the big company is not as good as expected. They are unsure of their next steps and are hesitant to interview for other big companies. They also feel reluctant to go back to their hometown to find a job. Overall, they feel stuck and unable to go anywhere.
